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The most dangerous man is the man with nothing to lose. I used to believe that, maybe because I felt like that the last time I was here in Iraq. I was willing to put myself in any situation to further the mission. Now I tend to disagree with that statement. I believe the most dangerous man is the one that stands to lose everything. Being a family man now, I will do anything to make sure I go back to my family. Nothing would stand in my way, and lo be those that do get in the way. Funny, how one's outlook on life changes, especially when they have others so integral in their own.

Well, I can not stop thinking of my wife and son back home. I yearn to be able to hold Jacob again and hear his cute laugh. I wish I could hug Brianne and never let her gone. To give her a loving kiss and be there for her. I miss the smile Jacob used to give me when I came home from PT when his mom was still asleep and I would play with him for a bit before I had to get ready to back to work. He used to get so excited when he see me. Bouncing up and down holding onto the railing of his crib.

The smile and laugh that Bri would give me when I was being goof, trying to make her laugh. Yeah, I was a goof ball, but I was her goof ball. It is always the little things that you miss.

I am still waiting for my package Bri sent me on the 30th of March. It sucks waiting and the mail has been back logged for a bit. I just keep waiting and every night I come on shift I asked to see if I have mail. Hopefully, it come soon, I can't wait to see the DVDs of Jacob. He must be getting so big.

For those that don't know me too well. I hate the heat, I never been able to get used to it. Though, I am not too fond of the cold, at least that I can stand. It is getting warmer here, not even hot yet and I am already cursing the heat. In New England, if it get to a hundred it is a state of emergency. I love the cool autumn days of home with the riot of color through out the trees. I miss the days that everything is covered in a blanket of snow during the harsh winters. This heat here just makes my stomach turn and I don't feel well at all. I try to drink a lot of water to keep my fluids up and drink Gatorade to replace the electrolytes that are flushed out of my system due to the increase intake of water. I am just not meant for the heat, I guess.